“I’m only as hard on others as I am…
I was looking forward to posting this just to let you know I’ve arrived at my final destination and I’ve already started the second year of the Committed Practitioner Intensive with my teacher and classmates. If you have no idea what I’m talking about read this post.
Practicing again with everyone has been a delicious homecoming. The energy in the room is powerful, it carries you further than where you can get to on your own, I love this feeling of being held and supported. Even though it’s intense, our daily practice feels sweeter and more mature than last year.
Another thing I’m enjoying is discovering how last year’s course has affected each of us. It seems as though last year’s experience was quite powerful for everybody and we have brought it home in very different ways.
Outside of the shala my first week and a half has been a bit of a bumpy ride. I was certain that returning here would be really easy… But it’s not! I feel far away from home and from the all the people and places that are part of my daily routine. I feel uncomfortable with my surroundings.. especially the wildlife!
Here everything is bigger, including the spiders. There’s these ones in particular that, although harmless, are terrifying to look at. They’re called Huntsman spiders: the larger ones are almost the size of my hand. They’ve got long legs and they move really quickly. Ugh!!
To my Australian host my attitude is probably pretty ridiculous, these critters are no threat to her. In fact she will graciously remove them for me with an ease I find both admirable and incomprehensible. Me? I run screaming from the room every time I see one.
Scary spiders aside, nature has also shown me it’s cute face. The other morning two wallabies (small kangaroos) jumped right out of the woods and bounced across the street a few meters ahead of me. It was an amazing and exciting sight. What a treat, I saw none in the 3 months I was here last year, and I trek that same path 4 times every day.
Starting next week the course will get progressively more intense and time-consuming. I won’t be able to spend as much time on it as I have while in Barcelona. Also, I don’t really want to! I need to be here. I hope you will forgive me for updating less frequently between now and the end of April.
Bye for now 🙂